Internalized capitalism is so fetch these days
Internalized capitalism generally refers to people who feel guilty when they rest, undervalue their achievements and prioritize work over well-being. It can be saying things like “I should be doing more” or “I should be farther along.”
I have internalized capitalism and lack of self-worth so well that, not only do I do this, but I seem to refuse to acknowledge the network effects of my work.
Consider that the entire accessibility process and division at work exists cause of me and the work my steering committee has done over the last 8 years. Literally none of this would exist otherwise.
Yet, I just seem incapable of allowing myself garner some of the credit for it. My brain refuses to accept “that happened because of the work I do” is as valuable as “I did that work myself.”
It’s quarterly review time, if you’d not guessed.